By summer 2016, my life was in a mess. I had been on drugs for 30 years and for 20 of those years, I had been “chasing the dragon”. In a short period of time, I had lost everybody I was close to. I was depressed, anxious and very angry. I was mentally unstable and violent. I was hearing voices in my head - they led me to self-harm and, in all, I was heading for an early grave. I had been heavily involved in the occult in my teenage years but did not realise that I had opened a door for demonic forces to mess up my life.
Then – just about literally – the hand of God came and held me and this began a healing process. In October 2017, I stopped taking heroin and then, after two weeks, I took it again. By that time, I had been watching Christian preachers on you tube etc and God was clearly working in my life. After I had this relapse, I was deeply convicted about my need to repent deeply for my actions and to receive mercy and forgiveness. I was totally broken in spirit and fully understood that I needed a Saviour and “Master” of my life. I told Jesus to take my life and to save me from myself. I surrendered everything I was to Jesus Christ.
From that time, things began to change. I stopped taking drugs and the anger and violence went, along with the depression and anxiety. For about a year after this, I felt I was burning inside. All that Satan had used to keep me in bondage was being burned up like chaff.
When I first took the step of attending church, I had no boldness of spirit but I was able to believe that Jesus had made a covenant with me and He had set me free. I am still far from perfect but I am a totally different person. The Bible, which I devour now all the time, explains that I am “justified” - that is, God regards me like I never sinned; the charge sheet is blank because Jesus took responsibility for ALL my wrong-doing. However, as life goes on, I am being made holier in actuality each day by the Holy Spirit, who now lives in me. The Bible calls this “sanctification”.
Anyone who has not begun living humbly under the mighty hand of God hasn’t even begun to live. Simple faith is amazing. My life has done a complete turn-around and I praise my Lord every day. I am Christ’s - and the really good news is that He is mine! May He reign forever in my heart and in His church - and together may we turn the world upside-down!